Monday, 16 February 2009

• nervous breakdowns

  Hey guys.

  it feels like a gloomy sunday, but it's a manic monday *smirk* how fitting.

  stress has been getting to me. i've 'sploded like a balloon. Such a failure, i've been eating chocolate and unhealthy foods like nobody's business.

  cw:156,

  gw1:150

  gw2:140

  gw3:130

  fw: 125 and dream w: 110

  im more or less having panic attacks in the middle of the day, twitching and snapping at people. my mind has been racing in incoherent thought amalgations (if that makes sense). im too tired to do anything, like read, or do homework, or do anything. every laugh feels forced, and i feel fake for trying to act like everything is normal with my friends. i hate people asking about me, so i have to fake it so they dont start asking me "how i feel" and if "im okayyyy" and other tripe. im sick and tired of school. im sick and tired of home. im sick and tired of friends. im sick and tired of people. im sick and tired of being ugly. im sick and tired of being stupid. im sick and tired of being me. im sick and tired of life. god, help me.

  does anyone just have those days/weeks where everything just sucks?

  btw: demetri martin's "important things" is a great show, watch it NAO

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